Nose To The Wheel
Day 4A Day Of Distractions
Went to sleep
Woke up
Worked
No sex
Went to sleep thinking of you. Woke up thinking of you. This morning, it was no longer raining. First time since I got here. It started raining on Thursday and they’ve had well over 200 mm since then. Started raining again gently late afternoon. Rain is forecast for the next 5 days. Got some good work done today. Took my mind off you. Spent the evening drafting a reply to Gary, who wanted me to go through his reply to Moya following another letter from her lawyer. Doing that is guaranteed to keep my mind off sex.
Having my mind on you is a lot more enjoyable.
Having your mind on sex is essential!
So get back to that.
Are you instilling boundaries of some sort with Gary. He keeps defaulting to you, which is fine if the investment is reciprocated, well that’s my two tim’s worth, lol.
I’m happy for Gary to default to me. He needs someone at the moment. I don’t know how much he speaks to anyone else. Probably a lot, if he’s asked. I don’t know if he’s asked. I’m not even sure how much he speaks to Bernie about the Moya situation. He knows I knew Linda well and thought a lot of her, so we connect there, too. I don’t think he’s really in a mental place to be able to give a lot back, and that’s fine. He’s a friend and he needs a friend.
Are we thinking every night about making love? Yes, great! On point, as they say!
Having said that, I’ll be honest, I will be happy to just be snuggled beside you. Being able to talk and share without using a phone or computer to communicate.
However, don’t kiss me, that’s fraught with danger. Your kisses are melting. ?❤️
I’m surprised you didn’t comment on the one above.
Since writing that I have wondered if the talking/sharing/listening and cuddling will be what we both have missed more than the more physically intimate newness of our next phase.
Maybe it’ll take time to reconnect?
Then again, it almost feels like the “need” will be to hold close and be still rather than active.
Nurture rather than desire.
I know you’ll say not to over think it and just relax into what ever may unfold.❤️
You should be surprised. I hadn’t seen it, is the explanation. Yes, the idea of snuggling and having our own little cocoon is very attractive. The idea of stillness is attractive. The feeling of comfort, of connection, a melding of minds. All attractive. Then we have the melding of bodies. Can’t speak for you, but that’s attractive for me, too.
Everything about you is attractive. Don’t kiss you? You’re dreaming. Not going to happen. You’re just going to have to cope with a dangerous situation.
I thought that I was more prone to overthink than you. I think that your last comment is perfect. I’m looking forward to finding out what does unfold. You’re wonderful.