Soul To Soul
Day 21A Gift Of Love For Someone Who, Perhaps, Cannot See
In previous years, I would have been squirming with discomfort at being the centre of attention. I tried to put this aside in the lead up, as I was certain that you would pay scant regard to my wishes and make a fuss. As you certainly did. Your thoughtfulness leading up to my anniversary and the execution was an expression of your love for me. I understand that. Differing attitudes to the day aside, I was immensely touched by all you did. How could I be so self-absorbed as to not be appreciative, thankful and grateful?
A side issue of shadows
I’m not really sure how I feel about the reading, as I’m not a believer in past lives. Neither, it should be said, am I a disbeliever. However, I certainly had responses as I was reading. The first of these was the use of my name, as I mentioned previously, but that’s a side issue.
It is, nonetheless, an issue. I have only very recently put that in context of shadows. I should really think that through and try to uncover what it is that impacts me. More accurately; why. Time enough for that, though.
When you sent me your previous reading, you made a point of asking me not to be disparaging, so I knew what Shamanka provided was important to you. I don’t blame you for specifically asking me this. So many people will belittle something that they don’t believe in, is against their beliefs, differs from a held opinion, or simply don’t understand.
In the soul-to-soul reading, I set aside any thoughts of how the reading came about and just paid attention to the narrative.
A connection
A bond
A gilded cage
It is easy to be seduced by descriptions that are flattering. I am gentle, sensitive and strong. I am in command. My energy – Uuska – possesses a gentle power, a knowing, a connection. These are heady descriptions, by anyone’s measure.
Uuska had a fear of losing Dimi. It was only when he no longer needed her that he let her go, too late for her. Pretty selfish, if you ask me. Quite reasonable in the circumstances, though, I suppose.
His fear in that lifetime was never resolved. Surely he must have recognized his need. Did he recognize the underlying fear? Did he have any other lives between then and now? Am I his next life? Is it up to me to try to resolve the fear, to overcome the need?
Carrier of souls
I was described as having a very Silvery (sic) energy presentation. I have no idea what that means. Do you?
As for you being the carrier of souls, that dovetails neatly with your nurturing character, doesn’t it? You were sent away (to isolation), in some ways abandoned. These are parallels to your own childhood. To your own detriment, you kept your word, you were honest.
If you and I are holding space, as she describes, then I should start working though my ‘need’ fear as soon as possible. I should do that anyway, past lives or no.
I really like the colour of Lapiz Lazuli, don’t you? It’s a beautiful shade of blue.
I am gentle, sensitive and strong. I am in command. My energy – Uuska – possesses a gentle power, a knowing, a connection – yes!
This is your Energy, it’s not flattery it’s observation.
When Shamanka first meets you, you are hesitant but amused – you would be !
Shamanka doesn’t hesitate to pull punches, I’ve read some harsh words about others – Milly, Sue – both had readings.
So it’s not said to flatter. You’re wonderful- maybe I need to be the one telling you – maybe that’s why you regularly tell me ….. ? Mmm.
Perfect, perfect song, my love. X
I understand the observations were descriptive rather than flattery. Nonetheless, they are flattering descriptions and, as they are descriptions of my energy – me? – that is why I say they are heady. Who doesn’t like to hear that they are a bunch of good things. Or my spirit is, at least.
For someone who receives unfavourable readings, an understandable reaction would be to discount it as nonsense. (“I never believed in all that stuff anyway.”) Immediate rejection.
For someone who receives favourable readings, an opposite reaction would be understandable. (“Wow. I never knew. Tell me more.”) Immediate acceptance.
Both reactions are shallow, but I think people can be seduced by flattery, don’t you?